Arghh .. I cant slp.. Hmmmm.. let mii tell u a story. Quite cliche tho...

Once upon a time, there was a girl, a very cheerful girl. She was plump and very ugly. She longed for a love story but she knew it was imposible. No one will fall for her with that look. But once, she got herself liking a guy she knew she should not. As predicted, he lied to her. She was hurt, so hurt. Since then, 'Trust' was lost in her dictionary. She could never trust anyone anymore. So, she became determined to lose weight, wanting to be a pretty girl. Nothing could stop her stubborness to turn nice looking. She wanted to have a real, true and serious love story like other people.
Yes, she succeeded and got herself a boyfriend. When she tried to get serious in that relationship, a guy came into her life. Without really knowing each other, she realised she was starting to love his voice, his special character and his dimpled smile. She loved him.
Foolishly, she broke with her boyfriend for that guy. That guy confessed to her his love but she dared not tell him the truth. She did not want to get hurt again. But whenever the guy flirt with her best friend, she could only get jealous silently.
Suddenly one day, the guy proposed to her. She could never forget that particular day. He promised to love and protect her. But, they broke off that night. Honestly, she did not remember exactly why but she knew she was so hurt by his flirtiness. She felt that all guys are the same. They are all lovelorns. "I love you" was nothing but words just to capture someone's heart.
Deleted his pictures, number and Msn. She tried to forget him. It was so difficult. It was the first time she was in love ; her first love. She broke off with many others for the same reasons, she could not forget. Gradually, she became such a flirt too, hurting many others.
One day, she got herself being with a guy. She knew he could not replace that guy but she tried. Once they broke off but patched things up. A few more weeks later, they broke off again. This time, they did not get back together. Weirdly, she started to miss his messages, his call and him. She kept denying she likes him to many of her friends. One night, he messaged her and told her he did not forget and unlove her. She was so touched. So so touched. She started to know him more and told him the upteenth time "I love you"
Did she meant it? I dont know. All I know was she cried when he ignored her twice.
One mistake she had made. Yes, she did not change from being a flirt. So, nothing can salvage anything but she truely hope for his forgiveness. No doubt that she had lost him forever.